Things I Will Never Understand

There is a short, but very astute, list of things I ponder from time to time.
Occasionally on my way home from work...sometimes when I'm at work even.
Do you do the same?  Pleasesayyes.....

1.  Why are needy animals attracted to me?
Exhibit A.

Found Sunday morning, before I church, beside my truck meowing like there was no tomorrow.
SOLD!

2.  Why do I sneeze every day between 3:30 and 4 pm?

3.  Why do I insist on touching things like ringworm and poison ivy...then touching my face right after?

4. 

OK, you know what?  This isn't at all what I want to say.
I'm trying...really trying, but I don't wanna bring you down!
You might not come back!

But I guess I'm not really sure anyone is out there in the first place, so what am I losing?
My mind.  Evidently.

What's going on in my noggin'?
Lots of things.

$15/hundred weight milk is right at the top.

That's what we are getting paid.
$15 per hundred.

Why so low?
Oh, lots of reasons....exports are down, school is out....you name it.

This is nothing new though...4 years ago when I was getting into the biz it was $14.
Yeowza.

So here we go.
I sold 16 cows, dried 14 off.
I have more to go.

I have to get the costs down so that I can do this more efficiently.

Wanna hear something totally honest?
I wanted to throw up when I got paid for the first load of cows.

Maybe I don't have what it takes anymore...I don't know.

Maybe I'm too soft.

We're not selling out though!
No worries as far as that goes.
I'm just kind of in a funk.

It will be OK though.
I hate to bring you down:(.
Please forgive me?!

I have a lot on my mind, and there are so many things I want to share with you.
A teeny tiny one of them I mentioned before....
My little peach fuzz.
Maybe he was dropped off here for a reason..could be the orange lining I need.

Don't give up on me just yet...I just need to get a glimpse of what I am reaching for then I will keep my blinders on and push through this.

Thanks for listening.
Love,
CowLady